Time. Time. Time.

It is truly something you cannot grasp.
On one end it moves too slow
And on one end, it moves too fast to catch up to.

I am dumbfounded, to say in the least, that my 4th year's 1st quarter is slipping away.
I also find it very amusing that I still dont know half of my class' names.
Everyday is a hassle. I find that less and less people are staying in the tables during breaks.

Aside from the fact that more of us have become officers, hence giving them bigger responsibilities; but the worklaod is testing the title of: professional crammers.

I am amazed. Amazed that now, I need total silence to work. Amazed that in the first quarter, we are fighting teeth bared and nails stretched out.

My club, finally, found a competition. For which I am grateful cause hell does that sounds good in your college application form. But the load. THE LABOR we need to do. If we win this and I hope we win; we have to give another performance. A different piece.

I wouldnt half mind the competition, but they're also asking us al sorts of things.
I have to memorize that, a 16 combo move, another poem, and stuff for tests. Tests, by the way that not only need to be passed but to be above average in.

They are TRYING to kill us. And I swear Mr. M is truly trying. And I can't believe a teacher we dont even have is TORTURING us like this.

I miss the teachers that make this all worthwhile. I mean my english teachers are okay. Probably minus one. And I love our Health teacher. and I can say Physics too but Im two sides of a coin on that one.

I hope I'll be able to see Ms. C when she comes. I pray to God, to the secret, to Deus. I truly hope I see her. I miss Ms. C so much.

I have not been able to watch my dose of anime. I am more than behind them. Although I do almost everyday use the computer. Which is already abusive because it means Im wasting time I could be using reading books. And not just school books. My only source of comfort is that I guess. Books. Again. God, I hope that I dont lose any library books this year. I wish I was perfect. Or smart even. Or, you know, strict, harsh on myself. Like Jane in New York Minute. WIth bathroom breaks scheduled and everything.

Whatever happens this year, I know I'll fulfil my dream. I am not dying, rather I refuse to die without fulfilling it.

Im getting tired. And I need to stop here too. Says my brother. I swear. it's not like he doesnt use this just to play too.

I will try and really really try at that, to update this fast. Because when I get to college, I want to go back to this site and laugh at myself.

Laugh because college is more of a hassle than 4th year is.

Ciao.
++Lilith Keehl++

::The best of the best, no doubt.::

~I'm stuck in a blitz~